http://2bucks.livejournal.com/ My brother is a golden nugget. - LiveJournal.com Thu, 30 Sep 2004 15:22:00 GMT LiveJournal / LiveJournal.com 2bucks 1125372 personal http://l-userpic.livejournal.com/5511444/1125372 http://2bucks.livejournal.com/ 75 100 http://2bucks.livejournal.com/4227.html Thu, 30 Sep 2004 15:22:00 GMT http://2bucks.livejournal.com/4227.html This Saturday is "screw your roommate" day, which involves hooking your roommate up with a random person in the newcomer's guide by means of roommate/roommate conversing without roommate's roommate/roommate's roommate knowing about it. If I already didn't confuse you with that description, you are a god to me. Anyways, I'm thinking about hooking my roommate up with some kid she incessantly fawns over. However, by what method is the question I've been waivering in my mind. Should I email the kid? OR, should I just call his roommate and then what? Of course, we all now how pathetic I am with men, so doing nothing at all is still an option. BUT, this is the year that I will change my attitude towards life. I will no longer wait for Brad Pitt to dump that Aniston chick and propose to me. I will no longer scream at the sight of hug exchanging between my parents. DAMN, I will no longer eat eggs without cheese! You heard that right all ye who doubt me. What the hell am I rambling on about? ...the hell if I know...don't like cheese though.. http://2bucks.livejournal.com/4227.html public 6 http://2bucks.livejournal.com/3841.html Fri, 06 Aug 2004 15:36:57 GMT http://2bucks.livejournal.com/3841.html Well, I just got back from houston and it's freakin hot! Going to Astroworld was a great idea, but not putting on enough sunblock proved to be a mistake! Now, I look more like a creature from Mars than one of human origin. Awww...damn.. http://2bucks.livejournal.com/3841.html public 1 http://2bucks.livejournal.com/3623.html Wed, 04 Aug 2004 18:17:12 GMT http://2bucks.livejournal.com/3623.html Hey, suzan, I'm sorry that I haven't been able to keep in touch with you lately. I should be getting a cell this week or next so I'll call ya soon....hopefully. Anyways, Hope you get up safely to New York and tell me wassup chica!!! http://2bucks.livejournal.com/3623.html public 1 http://2bucks.livejournal.com/3553.html Sat, 17 Jan 2004 04:48:17 GMT http://2bucks.livejournal.com/3553.html nothing happened thus far, just felt I should write something to inform people that I am still breathing although barely. yep, that's it...peazout! http://2bucks.livejournal.com/3553.html public 2 http://2bucks.livejournal.com/3268.html Tue, 06 Jan 2004 20:26:09 GMT http://2bucks.livejournal.com/3268.html Well, it took me an hour to drive home from Slidell, and man, did my ass hurt like a behotch or what! After driving back and forth so much, I'm surprised my ass isn't flat as a post. Then, I had a dinner appointment with Thu and Nora, both mamas now. I discovered I don't like Italian food that much due to the bloating and constipated feeling it gives me. All in all, it was a good day. http://2bucks.livejournal.com/3268.html public 0 http://2bucks.livejournal.com/2975.html Sat, 03 Jan 2004 04:11:24 GMT http://2bucks.livejournal.com/2975.html Man, my damn head hurts again..I just want to lie down...yes, that's right...lie down http://2bucks.livejournal.com/2975.html public 2 http://2bucks.livejournal.com/2632.html Wed, 31 Dec 2003 19:24:33 GMT http://2bucks.livejournal.com/2632.html sorry i haven't been updating and have been unreachable the last couple of weeks. I have been sick the last couple of days and can only stare at the ceiling or watch korean drama daily to relieve my boredom yet prevent me from regurgitating. In fact, I'm still kinda dizzy right now...so let me lie my ass down....I will try, suzan, to update more...do my best sista! http://2bucks.livejournal.com/2632.html public 3 http://2bucks.livejournal.com/2310.html Mon, 15 Sep 2003 17:24:32 GMT http://2bucks.livejournal.com/2310.html Damn i'm bored...waiting for my next class which is 2 freakin hours away!! I had this meeting with the dumb school's advisor for about 5 minutes..what a ho. Anyways, I'm seriously transfering, but I don't think I can bear to live THAT far away from my relatives so University of Chicago sounds good. I'm still thinking..I gotta search for more information as soon as possible though because I can't stand it here anymore!! lalala...blah blah blah http://2bucks.livejournal.com/2310.html public 3 http://2bucks.livejournal.com/2294.html Wed, 10 Sep 2003 18:58:55 GMT http://2bucks.livejournal.com/2294.html anyways, i'm so freakin bored and I have no internet! what the hell is that? Internet is blood, air, and sweat. Internet is my life! well, not really, back to the food network for me I guess.. GO IRON CHEF MORIMOTO! http://2bucks.livejournal.com/2294.html public 2 http://2bucks.livejournal.com/1964.html Sun, 24 Aug 2003 05:37:18 GMT http://2bucks.livejournal.com/1964.html I'm sorry; I haven't gotten the chance to update anything, just proving how boring my life is. Anyways, I haven't been online lately b/c I'm back at college trying to get everything together plus I have no real internet which sucks. Thus far, I'm putting my plan to transfer on hold since I should be worried about getting into med school rather than finding another undergrad school. But who knows, I'm kinda looney in the head, so I might change my mind tomorrow. damn...bored.. http://2bucks.livejournal.com/1964.html public 1 http://2bucks.livejournal.com/1623.html Wed, 13 Aug 2003 07:04:31 GMT http://2bucks.livejournal.com/1623.html I took care of my nephew all day then almost fell asleep at work. Damn, then I had to call my sister when I got home to argue yet again about my future. She doesn't understand why I want to go to an out of state school like John Hopkin's. She wants me to stay in the South and live and breed here. I love the South, but I haven't gotten a chance to make my own decisions yet and she's making it for me. I want to see the world for myself. She said I will regret it like she did. WEll, hell, I am not her...and what if I do regret it? At least I know that I, myself, have tried rather than just pondering the possibilities. I don't ever want to regret not taking that chance. God knows, I probably won't even get accepted. I just want to see if I do. All of my life, I've been reared to strive for the best, be valedictorian, be the best....but now..they are asking me to not achieve the best I can....to just be good enough. Can't they see that what they've instilled in my mind is set permanently...that all these precautions are worthless??? I'm going crazy...crazy I say. I don't know what the hell to do. I hate everyone..everything. damn the world.. damn all of you!!!!!!!!! http://2bucks.livejournal.com/1623.html public 2 http://2bucks.livejournal.com/1326.html Mon, 11 Aug 2003 06:49:42 GMT http://2bucks.livejournal.com/1326.html my head hurts..... http://2bucks.livejournal.com/1326.html public 1 http://2bucks.livejournal.com/1244.html Fri, 18 Jul 2003 07:28:17 GMT http://2bucks.livejournal.com/1244.html How have I become who I am today? I may be the worst form of myself. I want to be a better person. One that is always there for my friends, one that is always there for my family, one that is just always there. But I have neglected to be present when I need to be. I have secluded myself from everyone. I want to be isolated at one time or another. I want to run away to a place where no one knows my name, my face, a place where no one knows me...the true me. I don't even know the true me. Sometimes, I think myself as a kiniving, mischievous bastard who is molded by society to be ostentatious. I am not the person everyone thinks i am. I am not smart, intelligent, funny, nice, or any other venerable characteristic that every normal person aspires to attain. I am the devil in its most insidious form. I want too much out of myself but fail to discipline myself to accomplish any of it. I want to play the piano beautifully. I want to learn chinese, japanese, french, spanish, vietnamese grammar, and many, many other languages. I want to be a Columbia University undergraduate. I want to be a John Hopkin's medical student. I want to be a neurosurgeon. I want to be all these things that i am precarious if I will ever get. Thus, I would rather climb in a hole and be secluded for just one moment. JUst a brevity....so I don't have to think of my wants, So I don't have to have any feelings, any thoughts, or any breath. I just want to stand still and linger. Linger till life passes me by and forgets if i even exist. But this is life, I guess. There are its trials and tribulations. I can't just run away, deny the fact that I am Linh Ha Phan, abnegate that I am who I am and that's how's its gonna be until I die. Tears will wash away the pain. Tears will wash away the memories of what could be and what has already happened. NOthing can turn back the hands of time. Sometimes, I just wish I did not meet who I've met. I did not encounter situations that I have been through. But, but, if it weren't for them...these things..these people...this person..I would not have become who I am today. HOwever, the question is if i like who i am today. The answer, though, I am afraid to answer. I have given my fears of who I might become and my hopes of who I want to become. Time can only tell if i can live life the way I, linh ha phan, a good person, hopes to live. http://2bucks.livejournal.com/1244.html public 2 http://2bucks.livejournal.com/1007.html Fri, 11 Jul 2003 07:12:35 GMT http://2bucks.livejournal.com/1007.html hey..people..i just got back from working at Club Tiki today.. It was boring but i made me 9 bucks..oh yea..now..where's that lexus? I saw that guy I liked there. Oh lordy, my heart almost jumped out of my chest and I had to cover my face up behind the mannican. But then i got angry cause i was thinking why he was there.... only reason for people to go clubbing is to get some booty after all.. damn damn damn...oh well...9 bucks ..woo hoo!! http://2bucks.livejournal.com/1007.html public 0 http://2bucks.livejournal.com/530.html Tue, 01 Jul 2003 05:03:08 GMT http://2bucks.livejournal.com/530.html Well, bill came unexpectedly to ruin everybody's day. It was raining like crazy here. I went to work today and thought I was gonna die b/c the kitchen electricity went out and the vent didn't work. So, the smoke went everywhere...I was hyperventilating and stuff...damn damn damn.. Umm...well, that was the most exciting thing in my life so far. Ughh..yea...that's bout it... http://2bucks.livejournal.com/530.html public 1 http://2bucks.livejournal.com/303.html Thu, 19 Jun 2003 17:21:15 GMT http://2bucks.livejournal.com/303.html Hello, congrats to me on celebration of my first entry!! Yay, me! Anyways, I woke up, brushed my teeth, and decided to make some cookies. My mom yelled at me for losing the car keys, and she said my cookies were nasty. Thanks, Mom! It doesn't matter though b/c while she was extruding whatever derogatory adjectives about me, I was still reminiscing on yesterday's "casual lunch." That's the most fun I've had in a long time; kinda sad when you think about it though. I'm not asking for too much though. Being friends is more than I can ask for, and I feel lucky for a chance or any chance at all. Anyways, thanks to Suzan for striking the conversation that gave me an opportunity for a rendevous with this particular person!! Ugh...went to eat some ribs with my sister at Corky's yesterday. Those are some damn good ribs. Waiter gave us some free cole slaw that we didn't eat too! Then, I broke down when I got home. That's bout it. http://2bucks.livejournal.com/303.html public 2